If I Just Lay Here.

I am a mess, and I am complicated and indecisive. Sometimes that makes me think that I should change. Then just as I get deep inside of my own head, I see a photo that drips of love, a sweet smell that resonates with me, or a movie like The Vow that reminds me to remain the ball of messy, picky, energy that I am. A soul like my own breaks out into hives at the thought of an ordinary love. I am for certain that a love that leaves you breathless, basking in all that it is, fully satisfied, completely consumed, and upside down is real! It is only for those who have the courage to wait for it. That rare and unbelievable kind of love can be found right after the one illusion of love that we are so prone to settling on. This idea of love can more accurately be defined as tolerance, and we accept it because we are afraid that we don't deserve more. It's a choice that only us hopeless, foolish, mad, insane, yet courageous romantic individuals choice, to wait for the real thing.